[ He's smarter than this. He knows there's no way to disentangle doing something for Mine's sake. To ease his heartache, to try again to instill something valuable in him. You don't take up relationships planning to change the other person. ]
Things would have been easier if you left, you know. If you were a civilian instead of my subordinate.
[ Distance, their own separate lives to live. It doesn't work like that with the gokudo, where they're sworn brothers and Daigo has taken a bullet for him and reports to him more days than not. ]
Anything I do is an abuse of power. Even just allowing you to stay is stringing you along for my benefit.
[ And he's already selfishly, pathetically done that. He folds his hands on the table, pushing his food to the side with his head slightly tilted. ]
[ Easier. Lots of things would have been easier. It's not as if he didn't choose this path for himself; he knew exactly what this kind of life would entail. Nothing has been easy for him. Why start taking the easy path after a little near-death experience? ]
That's your choice, isn't it? It's not up to me to decide for you.
[ And whatever Daigo decides, he'll accept. It's not like Mine is going to go anywhere. It'll just be a desire forever out of his reach that may or may not drive him mad -- more mad. ]
[ At surface value, maybe it looks like he's trying to get out of being responsible for this choice but what this looks like in Daigo's mind is simple: They can't do this if Mine is forever going to treat him like an infallible master.
He sweeps up his garbage in a smooth motion then. When he's sorted it into the appropriate little bins, he straightens his coat and waits by the door. He's already feeling around his pockets for his deck of cigarettes. ]
[ Mine takes a moment to compose himself before following after him. He has to make the decision...
The right one would be to not take a chance on this and carry on as things always have been. He's not in the mood to make the correct decision. What he wants and has wanted for quite some time is dangling right there in front of him and like hell he's going to walk away from that.
There's that selfishness he can't give up.
He deals with his trash before fixing his gaze on Daigo. ]
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Things would have been easier if you left, you know. If you were a civilian instead of my subordinate.
[ Distance, their own separate lives to live. It doesn't work like that with the gokudo, where they're sworn brothers and Daigo has taken a bullet for him and reports to him more days than not. ]
Anything I do is an abuse of power. Even just allowing you to stay is stringing you along for my benefit.
[ And he's already selfishly, pathetically done that. He folds his hands on the table, pushing his food to the side with his head slightly tilted. ]
What should I do?
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That's your choice, isn't it? It's not up to me to decide for you.
[ And whatever Daigo decides, he'll accept. It's not like Mine is going to go anywhere. It'll just be a desire forever out of his reach that may or may not drive him mad -- more mad. ]
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No. It is. You need to make the decision.
[ At surface value, maybe it looks like he's trying to get out of being responsible for this choice but what this looks like in Daigo's mind is simple: They can't do this if Mine is forever going to treat him like an infallible master.
He sweeps up his garbage in a smooth motion then. When he's sorted it into the appropriate little bins, he straightens his coat and waits by the door. He's already feeling around his pockets for his deck of cigarettes. ]
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The right one would be to not take a chance on this and carry on as things always have been. He's not in the mood to make the correct decision. What he wants and has wanted for quite some time is dangling right there in front of him and like hell he's going to walk away from that.
There's that selfishness he can't give up.
He deals with his trash before fixing his gaze on Daigo. ]
I'm willing to take the chance.
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On what, Mine-san?
[ He's asking for something, maybe it's self-awareness. ]
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