[ As long as he's alive, he can start again...And yet here he is in the same place he was before. Is it the same, though? Everyone looks at him differently now and treats him differently. Hard not to when you went through what he did. ]
I have no reason to lie to you.
[ Which is true. He could be more honest, but this is too public of a place for that kind of discussion. The honest truth is that he feels extremely inadequate standing next to Daigo and that he's not worthy of that position. Master and servant is much more akin to his line of thinking right now...The idea of them being equals is beyond him right now.
And maybe that's why the distance between them is so maddening. ]
If I'd left...I don't know what I would have done with myself. I stuck around because of you.
[ He still feels like he owes so much to Daigo, so much he can never repay and so much he can never make up for. The pain of never being able to truly show Daigo his devotion is a sort of punishment for himself. ]
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I have no reason to lie to you.
[ Which is true. He could be more honest, but this is too public of a place for that kind of discussion. The honest truth is that he feels extremely inadequate standing next to Daigo and that he's not worthy of that position. Master and servant is much more akin to his line of thinking right now...The idea of them being equals is beyond him right now.
And maybe that's why the distance between them is so maddening. ]
If I'd left...I don't know what I would have done with myself. I stuck around because of you.
[ He still feels like he owes so much to Daigo, so much he can never repay and so much he can never make up for. The pain of never being able to truly show Daigo his devotion is a sort of punishment for himself. ]